Thursday, February 26, 2009

ALL-DEE

If you are not shopping at Aldi, you're stupid. SERIOUSLY.

I just got back from a trip and I got the following for $48.29:
2 two-quart box jugs of juice
2 boxes of poptarts
3 boxes of sweet and salty granola bars
bananas
a large jar of mayonnaise
a 10-pack of flour tortillas
a pound of ground turkey
two boxes of cereal (1.89 ea)
6 bean & beef burritos
a roll of uncooked sausage
3 bags of kettle style potato chips
2 boxes of fruit snacks
a bag of yogurt covered raisins
4 ears of sweet corn
a box of look-alike Cheez-Its
a jar of creamy peanut butter
a bag of cinnamon raisin bagels
a bag of gala apples
2 chicken pot pies.

If I went to another grocery store, even Food Lion, this bill would be 2x this amount at least. Now consider yourself enlightened: go to Aldi.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

my baby danced

with me.

We took a long walk yesterday, and ended up on the top level of a parking deck that had no roof. We could look out and see a lot of the little city we live in. I've been down lately about some things, and my (rather fresh) husband decided it would be a good idea to sing me a song and dance with me on the top of that roof as dusk was setting in. It was so sweet. Even now, my eyes water thinking about it. I began to cry, a task I hate doing in front of others, including him. But as he danced with me, I felt my God remind me of how much this earthly husband loves me. And the following thought, hit me even harder as the tears continued: How much more does my heavenly husband love me. It is something I've known my whole life, but in that surreal moment, it became a concept that felt so incredibly real. As my other half was squeezing me and moving me to the rhythm of the song in his head, like a scene from a movie, my Lord and Savior was wrapping his arms around us both. An experiential reminder of who He is, and how much He loves us.

I thank you both for loving me so. I don't deserve any of it.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

un mes


We've been married ONE MONTH!

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

fear

Do one thing every day that scares you.

This advice from Elanor Roosevelt has always intrigued me. I'm confident if one actually took this advice, there'd constantly be an adventure to write about. Well today, I did two things that scared me - and I'm glad I did.

1. I never learned to drive a stick shift. It's amazing how much my mentality so naturally goes into the "I'm too old to learn something new" mode. It sounds like something a 75-year-old should say, not a 24-year-old. It's a very scary thing for me, and CJ has taken a chance of teaching this old wineskin a new way to hold wine. Today possibly marks the 6-month mark since my last driving lesson. I know where all the gears are, but constantly have to be reminded what I must do with each foot during the shifting process. Today we were at the top of a hill from a small park's parking lot, and I was on the verge of taking the plunge: driving on a real street with other cars. It freaked me out. CJ asked: "Do you feel comfortable shifting from first to second." That's a negative, I replied. I felt uncomfortable with the fact that at the top of this hill, I have to figure out the clutch before I can hit the gas which means I'll end up reversing to the bottom of the hill before moving any amount in the right direction. With traffic constantly coming ... I knew it wasn't a good idea. So we put the Isuzu Rodeo in park and switched seats. I was happy with day's accomplishments previous to the hill situation: a dozen turnabouts in the park's parking lot and some serious attempts to switch between clutch and gas slowly.

2. I applied for a job online, and CJ convinced me to walk into the job site and tell the employer a few things my resume didn't permit me to say. When he told me to do this, I was frustrated. I had applied to the position through a job bank site, and when I talked to the job bank, they said I wasn't qualified enough. So I was angry, and the last thing I wanted to hear was a challenge. But he gave me one nonetheless. And that scary challenge tugged at my core until these feet walked through those doors. I was so nervous, worried I'd be annoying the employer, worried they'd think I was a persistent bother. CJ reminded me of what I told him to do when he was job searching.

This marriage thing is fascinating. How often does God offer us a challenge, and all we want to do is throw a temper tantrum? Those temper tantrums are enticing: they are easy, require no real energy and in the end ... make us numb to the world. Roosevelt was onto something. She understood that certain fears will make us more alive, if we but face them.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Tom, Tierra, Seth and Greg




The end of a season, the harvest remains

Many stories walk through the processing center every day during the Operation Christmas Child season. Here are a few of them.

James Outland has lived in the United States for six years. He's orginally from Liberia. Outland said working at OCC is awesome. "And I say that becuase it's a godly atmosphere. It's not what you find in a normal atmosphere. I meet new people every day. Well some of them are not that exciting, but the vast majority of the time you find someone who is touched by what you do and whose heart is warm and inspires you to do more. Most importantly, I am a person of purpose. I like to be defined by my purpose and I like it here because I know that whatever I do here is contributing to the wellbeing of somebody somewhere else in the world. Some child’s life is going to be touched, that family is gonig to be touched. God is going to get the glory so, that keeps me going."

Greg Ainslie, 32, sits in the largest and loudest break room in all of Charlotte eating an Entenmann's strawberry cheese danish. "I figured it out, these things are rehydrated Poptarts." Ainslie can be caught eating one at least twice a day. "I love this place," he leaned into the recorder and emphasized his words. "I luuuve this place. I was next door signing up for unemployment and I dropped in here to volunteer and got a job. And I just see it as God saying "Nut uh, I'm going to take care of you, everything is OK, you don't need to worry."

Seth Brewer walked up to Ainslie's table, sat down and opened his Chic-Fila sandwhich. "A good son would clean his father's gutters," he said jokingly. "Dude, whatever," Ainslie jokes back, explaining his father recently broke his arm cleaning the gutters. Brewer, a first-time associate staff, said he feels guilty at times working here. "I feel I'm getting paid to go to church. It's really a win win win win situation. It makes you that much more aware of your blessings and how we are blessed to be a blessing ... not only might this be the only gift they receive, but the only thing new they receive. When I get to do a presort and pray over the boxes, it's just emotional. The whole process is hard to put into words." Brewer left a bit early one night, and said he wrestled with doing so. "The selfishness of going to a Christmas party or ... saving lives," he said, hand-motioning a balancing scale. Working at the warehouse has been a mountaintop experience, he said.

Felton Kamanda, just moved to Charlotte from Sierra Leone three months ago. He and his father are working at the OCC warehouse. The 20-year-old serves as a back-up. Some days he gets work. Because he has no personal transportation, the days he doesn't work, he'll sit in the break room and talk to people waiting for his father's 7-hour shift to end. The job is his first in the states."This place is a nice place, it's a godly place, a Christian place, it's lovely," Kamanda said. "Glory be to God because it's a blessing to me." Kamanda pretended for a moment to be a child in his home country receiving a shoe box. "I would (be) very happy and excited for that box," he said. "I want to know what is in that box for me. I would be very anxious to open it. I would be so glad and thankful to God."

Tierra Mendez has been an associate staff for five years. The processing center isn't new to her. She started as a volunteer when she was "real young."It's just a blessing to come back and serve God at the same time," she said in the midst of the pink and yellow lines screaming at the top of their lungs. "Just the cause … that kids get to know our God, you know what I mean, in countries where their beliefs are totally different. But just a little gift that can open a window so God can really change their lives, that's why I"m here. I don't have to be in other countries, I can be right here and serve.

Dianna Hardesty, from Austin, Texas, said working at the processing center means “to be a servant of the Lord and to do his will, to touch little children. My absolute passion in life is children, and to know that their lives are going to be transformed through their little gift of love.” Hardesty travels 2,400 miles and has been cleaning the dining room area, where one might find her digging for plastic bottles or soda cans to place in the appropriate recycling containers. Ask her position, and she’ll say she’s a servant of the Most High God. In 2006, she was a cartonizer, but this year her application was misplaced, but she told the staff to give her any position open. “What an honor to serve all the saints out here, this is the best position out here, this is the best job on the planet.”

Ana Smith, a former missionary to Spain, had worked previously on this project through a temp agency in the mailroom. This year she’s happy to be out on the floor with the volunteers. “It's been a huge blessing. I think God is calling me back and this is giving me a little taste of it, almost romancing me back into full-time ministry. I'm also very drawn to anything that has to do with children.” Smith had an interaction with a volunteer that sticks in her mind. “Last week I had a volunteer that kept looking at me. It was an older man maybe about 50s or 60s, and I said, ‘What? what is it.’ And he said, ‘Is that your real name Ana Banana? And I said, ‘Well everybody calls me that and I just put it on my name tag because I needed something today.’ He said, ‘You just keep smiling, I just can't get over it, no matter what anybody says to you or does you just keep smiling.’ And that really, that was a highlight. I needed that. The Lord always seems to have a word for us at some point or another.”

Tom Yokeley has been volunteering at OCC for years. In the middle of making cartons, he told the story of his 13-year-old Natalie, who died at the end of November from cancer. Yokeley talked about how he quit his job to be with her night and day in the hospital. He talked of his 16-year-old son, who has a reputation in his public high school as the Bible boy, and who loved his sister dearly. Toward the end of Natalie's life, she was in wheelchair. "I wish I could reel her in here. She would love this. Every time I write Girl 10-14, I think of her ─I think about what a good life she had for those years and I think about these kids and just how excited they'll be to get a shoebox, it makes their year." Tom's wife works at the Billy Graham Evangelical Association, and he said that's been a good support for them. He took out two laminated pictures, showing off Natalie’s cute face, brown hair and braces. But still, the pain still lingers, and Tom eagerly awaits the next life. "I don't know what people do without God in their lives, especially in situations like this. I'll get to heaven, a place we all yearn for, and ask her why she left me so soon. And she'll say, 'Dad it's so simple,' just like she always used to."

For this writer, being a part of OCC weeks and days before I make some serious promises to my about-to-be husband, has been a way of strengthening the cement right before a foundation will be built. In many ways I have felt closer to God, a mountain-like experience like Brewer said. But for me, I've been learning Colossians 3:23 all over again: recognizing that the work of Lord can involve mundane tasks. It's just as important for the toilets to be cleaned and the cartons to be taped as it is for the prayers to be said and conversations to be had with the volunteers. All of these things are part of the harvest work ─ each necessary for God being glorified. Jesus once told his disciples he wasn't hungry and that his food was to do the will of God. I have been reminded that whatever is next (especially for those of us in need of employment), it has the potential to be a morsel of God's will - regardless the task. Tom's story had my heart aching and my eyes watering. Even in the midst of such strife, he's eating the right food and the energy he gets from that allows him to maintain his post as a reaper. The faith I've seen in so many, the devotions I've heard, the energy and excitement, the encouragement on rough days ... this is all for the Glory of the One who came to seek and save the lost. May we continue to do likewise. Happy Birthday Jesus.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

OCC looks like this



the vows

I betroth you to me in righteousness and in justice, in steadfast love, in mercy and faithfulness. I will encourage you to appreciate deeper depths, higher heights, and wider widths of Christ's love. I give you my honesty and kindness, and I vow to seek the kingdom of God first above all else. I will love you in and through all things. Our love will not be defined by the world, but by Truth, and in that truth, together we will abide. Together we will plant, water, wait, and harvest ... and together we will bear fruit. I set you, this day, as a seal upon my heart to have and to hold, in want and in plenty, in hunger and in satisfaction, in sickness and in health, to love as an example of Christ and the church, until death brings us face to face with our King.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Reactions #4 and #5

Very good points.

We spoke of this a bit already but, it reminds me when I was smoking pot. It felt cool because it was illegal. It was a risk and there were consequences. It feels too good to rebel especially when you disagree with those who decide what is right and wrong.
-C



this is great, really. you helped me put my finger on why it makes me uncomfortable when politicians advertise their religious affiliations so much. It's not that i don't want to elect christians, I just don't know why I should vote for someone who publicly declares that they are a Christian just because they said they are.
-J

Reaction #2

I would add that it is "in relationships" that we discern what the truth is to begin with. The fact that we have a Bible at all speaks to the community of Christians who came together and decided what was and was not Scripture. God did not drop a list of rules out of the sky, though sometimes I wish he would. He did not speak to us directly, telling us not to eat of this tree or that tree. No. He gave us the witness of fallible, broken people, some of whom received prophecy from him, some of whom just tried to follow his rules of worship that they might relate to him, some of whom walked and talked with his Son Jesus.

Some of these people got drunk with wine, and it was good (read the Proverbs); Jesus even made some wine for a wedding because he believed in celebrating. None of these people had any concept of an equal relationship between men and women. Girls were property, given by their fathers in exchange for a dowry. Extra-marital sex amounted to financial theft from the girl's family.

Here are but two examples where a community, in loving relationship, must discern God's will for what is the healthiest, most peaceful, most loving way to live. In my humble opinion, this process involves not merely communicating God's truths as though we already understand them, but struggling, in community, to understand and apply them in a very different context from when they were presented in Scripture.

Alcohol, sex, anger, poetry, silence, baseball -- all of God's gifts are wonderful as long as they are used carefully and not abused. Will this drink or this sex or these words I am writing help you and me, or harm us? If they draw people closer together, fostering peace, then they are God's gifts, not to be feared.

To address your bigger point: God forbid a politics based on fear. The politics of Jesus is a politics of grace and love, inviting everyone into God's bounty.

-from J

Reaction #3

I agree with so much of what I just read. I do, however, disagree with your conclusion. In my opinion, to take God out of the state is to condemn America. God destroyed Sodom and Gomorra for their lack of morality and Christian influence. Abraham pleaded with God that if there were only 10 righteous people left that he would save the city. God also saved the ship that Paul was riding on his way to Rome that became lost in the storm. The reason he saved the ship was because of Paul. I’m not going to say that I look up to McCain spiritually, but I would love to vote for a president that truly has a heart after the Lord. This is not the case because I’m trying to exclude gays or make abortion illegal, but because I think it would be for the best interest of America.

Did you know that there are Chinese people coming to America on mission trips? China is evangelizing us! We are in danger of God’s judgment, and perhaps the reason why his hand is being held back is because of the Christian influence that is still here. Are we willing to pay the price of losing our morals in order to have lower taxes?

And where do we draw the line? I completely agree that we are going to see change through relationship and not through law, but I don’t think that means we should do away with the law. Should we legalize drugs and prostitution just because it is going to happen anyway? I’m not going to change a drug user by making a law against it, but by loving on him…agreed. But allowing him to destroy his life by something we know is wrong is not very loving.

I don’t think we are doing American any favors by separating it from the moral laws described in God’s Word.
-from CM

Reaction to Separate but Equal #1

I think upon first reaction that I agree with you on all major points
you made. It seems that all too often the church DOES try to control
politics by forcing their beliefs and convictions on the masses
through political means and gains of power. When discussing this with
some people I almost feel guilty, like I should be more on the other
side. I would not personally promote abortion, gay marriage,
over-consumption of alcohol or marijuana. However, I don't think that
just because that is my personal conviction that it should be law. So
many Christians try to say that this nation was founded on Chritian
beliefs, therefore, the Christian church and position should still be
the foundation and the solution to governments problems. I can't
agree, at least not fully. The founding fathers came for religious
freedom. It was because of similar oppression in Britain that they
came here. Yes, they were Christians, but what if they were muslims
coming for religious freedom? I somehow doubt that they would have
agreed with oppression against another religion as long as it wasn't
theirs. For example, I don't believe that politics and government
should preach and force Christian ideals just as I don't think they
should force Muslim/Buddhist/atheist etc. ideals. Take gay marriage. I
disagree based on Christian conviction. However, does that mean that I
should say it should be outlawed for everyone, because I disagree
means everyone should be forced to see it my way through state mandated
laws? I don't know. I realize if I said to most any Christian that I
wouldn't be totally appauled if it became legal that they would be
shocked and appauled by me and likely throw dozens of scriptures down
my throat about why it's wrong. But, what if state law said it was
illegal for me to go to a Christian church? Or illegal for me to send
my child to a Christian school? Or illegal to celebrate Christian
holidays? I think that all too often Christians are close-minded to
the point of not even listening to another side or lifestyle. Not that
we should be condoneing of it, but also not so close-minded that we
arrogantly assume that everyone should, in a way, be forced to believe
and act as we do. Anyway, I think that you got at the heart of the
matter. We should focus more on individuals and relationships as a
means to change hearts and actions and not politics and forced laws.
-from A

Why not to just pick the abortion issue like a booger when voting


Separate and Equal
The gospel of Jesus Christ says simply that no natural man can fulfill the law. No one is good enough, no one can be perfect. So one who was perfect came from above, fully God and fully man. He fulfilled the Old Testament law by forming a path for relationships between God and man.
Rules without relationships create anger, bitterness, and the word often heard in the church: legalism. Imagine being told by a stern authority with whom you had no desire to talk to or to please—not to cross the street, not to put your hand on a hot stove, not to kiss a pretty girl, not to speed, not to pursue a life of creativeness. Some may not have to imagine this. Authority may be given by someone other than you, but only you decide to respect certain authorities. Respect comes through relationship or through fear. Maybe that stern authority would whip you with a belt if you did such things, but does that ever really rid those desires?
Now think of a loving father, one who takes you to the park when he gets the chance and ties your shoes so you don't trip and makes you peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. In love, he tells you not to cross the street ... and then gives you a reason why. He walks you through the process of looking both ways and reminds you of the consequences of not doing so. After a few times of holding your hand as you do so, he lets you do it on your own. If you forget, and he sees, he'll correct you, possibly even yell at you. But as you grow older, he trusts when you cross without him, you'll continue practicing what he's taught.
This is why I believe Church and State should be separate.
Let's take the example of abortion. That stern authority tells you not to get an abortion. Tells you you can't. Tells you you are stupid for having slept with someone you shouldn't have. Continually condemns the things you do. The child is only a reminder of that condemnation because of a misconstrued desire for your "good." Let me be clear: I do not condone abortions. Anyone I have a right to tell my opinion on abortions, I will do so. That right comes with relationship. Morally, I don't think abortions are right even in rape cases. If I were in that position, I am 95 percent sure I wouldn't have one. Just because something is legal doesn't mean it's moral. Legally, it's OK to have an affair. You don't get thrown in jail for that. Legally, it's OK to get drunk. Morally, neither one of these things are right. If abortion becomes illegal, just like Prohibition times, the action will still happen, just under sticky and detestable conditions.
Separation of Church and State was an idea taken from a letter Thomas Jefferson wrote to the Danbury Baptists in 1802. He said:
"Believing that religion is a matter which lies solely between man and his God, that he owes account to none other for his faith or his worship, that the legislative powers of government reach actions only, and not opinions, I contemplate with sovereign reverence that act of the whole American people which declared that their Legislature should "make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof," thus building a wall of separation between Church and State."
The forefathers were escaping religious persecution from Great Britain. This is why their mindset (although many of them Christians) was religious freedom to all. The oppression felt by the crushing hand of the crown was enough to make them sail the 3,325 miles across the Atlantic in hopes of a new life.
Christ said he came to bring us an abundant life. Christians might disagree on many things, but the concept of a relationship with Christ is clear throughout the New Testament. Politics exist within the church, for anywhere a body of humans are gathered, politics exists. But should the church exist in politics? No. Why? Because man's corrupted heart will turn religion into a stepping stone for increased power, persuading people their stance can be equated to God's stance.
It makes me nervous when I hear of a politician being invited to a church in hopes of gaining votes. If that politician comes to the pulpit and preaches the Word, OK. But if he comes stating if you vote for him, you vote for God's man in office, I won't have any of it.
Blaise Pascal said, "Men never do evil so completely and cheerfully as when they do it from a religious conviction."
We are human, and therefore we are fallible. We sin. Our hearts are deceptive above all things and beyond cure. Power corrupts. My will can never perfectly be God's will. I live in a corrupted world, and that pollution is part of why I am here. Can I be a politician and a Christian, absolutely. Just as I can be a doctor and a Christian, a journalist and a Christian. But I should not use my religion as a platform to try to convince readers I'm a better writer than the heathen Joe Schmoe. I am fully a Christian and I am fully a writer. Therefore the two will overlap. (Hence why I wrote this.) But I will not go only to Christians for stories. The truth will set you free, Jesus said. The truth is not that the U.S. is made of only Christian views. When I write columns, my beliefs always come out. I must create respect by showing my serious attempts of unbiased journalism. Then the prostitutes, the gays, the God-haters, the religious right that I rarely fully agree with might actually read my column and be reminded that when I interviewed them, I did so with respect and actually listened to what they had to say. Christians are too loud. You can tell me to shut up, I need to more often than I do. James tells us to be quick to listen and slow to speak. Listening is one of the best relational tools.
In any arena of life, when those who don't have a relationship with me try to convince me to do something they like, whether it be door-to-door Jehovah's Witnesses or gay rights activists ... I might talk to them just to practice my arguing skills, but I'm not really listening to what they say.
The way to reduce the abortion rate or the gung-ho desire for legalization of gay marriages or even the desire for marijuana is not through the government, it's through relationship. When the government creates more laws, it needs more people to enforce them. (Which means more raised taxes.) I have talked to law enforcement officials who say that jails are crowded with pot smokers. Time is spent on the smaller issues, when we have serial killers and rapists living civilian lives. Making abortion illegal will only create more work for police departments who seem to be short-staffed all over the United States.
Church and State must be separate, but personal beliefs and convictions can never be separate. That is why we vote for a candidate (hopefully) based on the issues, we vote for the man or woman whose problem-solving technique is most like ours. Church and State in my head are equal. The presence of an active Church is just as important as an active political life. But neither one comes above my relationship with Christ.
Jesus cannot be our excuse for an insatiable desire for power, an insatiable desire to make everyone believe what we believe. It is by example we must lead, it is by relationships we will change the hearts of men — does that not imitate Christ more than anything else?